Self-portrait project

It is a good thing to know oneself.  That is part of what this project is about.  Over the last 11 years I have felt like I lost who I was.  I became a wife and a mother and I put my husband and his career first. I decided to be a bigger part of the children's lives than a career focused mom is able to.  I gave him the lead.  I have been wanting to get my masters degree and have not been supported in that.  When I wanted to start a photography business even though it seems like he was being supportive by getting me a camera, he wanted me to run the business the way he wanted and when I was on the computer working he would be upset because I wasn't paying attention to him.  If he didn't want me to do something I would come up with another idea for what I could do, his response to that was "add it to the list".   We have been separated for 3 years now and finally this February there is an order saying that our marriage relationship is dissolved.  In the midst of our divorce the two children that we had together were taken away from me because of things he has said and things I have said and done while trying to get help with our situation.  In this picture you should see a reflection of my grief.  Of my pain and heartache.  No mother should ever have the children she gives birth to ripped out of her care the way mine were.  No father should have that either.  

Beautiful baby boy

There is nothing that I know of that is more peaceful then a sleeping baby.  

Balloons

When I was at the grocery store having these balloons filled, a woman stopped and asked me if the balloons were for someone's birthday. I smiled and said no they were for something else, 'but don't balloons just make you smile?', I asked.  She agreed.

Please enjoy the happiness!